fallin into ur arms

#117

2009-02-28T13:55:00.001+08:00

once again
life is screwed up...
what a failure i am

#116

2009-01-16T22:17:00.002+08:00

why can't life be as simple as ABC?
i wish it could
but it isn't...
WAKE UP!
stop living in self denial!

#115

2009-01-08T23:45:00.001+08:00

my blog is rotting away huh?
shall update since i had time...
it's the 8th day of 2009 already.
2009 started of alright.
as usual it still revolves round
either with work or school...
well i guess thats how
my life is planned out to be...
i shalln't update anymore on 2008
as it's over and gone
what's left to be said
would only be
only when you learnt your mistakes
thats when you have really grown up...

#114

2008-12-29T11:20:00.001+08:00

if i were to go missing
don't be surprise

at this moment
i don't feel like facing reality
but instead escaping from it...

#113

2008-12-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

once again
troubled...

if you think you know me well
i guess you're wrong once again

#112

2008-12-23T16:32:00.010+08:00

15december2008

first day of holidays
thought that i would have
more time to spent with granny

this holiday season

but i was wrong

totally wrong

it hit me

hit me hard
just stood back from the first hit
the second came

unexpectedly...

i woke up in the morning

packing to leave for granny house

phone rang

it happened liked before

history is repeating itself again...

i rushed back to malaysia

i didn't make it back in time
she didn't wait for me
she left me

when i got back
she was lying there
i called her

she didn't respond to me

she was still lying there

motionless, turning cold

i stood a distance

i didn't had the courage

to go up to her

didn't had the courage

to accept the fact that she's gone

for that she's too precious

but
gone forever...

15december2008,2:10pm

once again

this date, this time

i'll never forget

this date,this time
many things could be happening

someone being welcomed into the world

someone leaving the world

someone rejoicing

someone mourning

this date this time

once again

i lost someone
someone close
really close

she really left me

really sudden

she was called home
to the holy presence of god

may she rest in peace.

she will always be part of my memories...

明天你会离我有多远 ?
十二月十五日；两点十分

此时此刻都不会忘

此时此刻有很多的事情都同时发生

有人被迎接来到这世界

有人从这世界上离去
有人欢喜
有人愁此
时此刻的我是愁,
悲失又去了身边珍贵的亲人

是一种很难以接受的事实

但也是一种难以改变的事实

奶奶走了...她从这世界上离去了

我再也无法在这世界上找到她

再也无法了...她就这样从我身边擦肩而过离去了...

永别了...

一个依依不舍的告别

但我还是希望你走得安心

再见了...

things aren't just the same without her around...

#111

2008-12-12T23:53:00.001+08:00

last day of attachments...

#110

2008-12-10T23:06:00.001+08:00

how i wish could have
unlimited amount of
ice cream right now
i mean right now...

will you get out of my life?
you don't belong here at the first place
you are ruining everything of mine...
must you be here?
you were here since 2000
it has been 8 years 9 years to come
shouldn't it be the time that you leave?
will you leave me alone?
leave me for good?
please?

#109

2008-12-09T23:47:00.004+08:00

sometimes it's really amazing
how contradicting life can get...

#108

2008-12-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

有时你为他人所作的一切
你认为都是为她好
但有时你为他人所作的一切
不一定是你认所谓的对她好
你明白吗？
希望你会明白...

#107

2008-12-07T15:42:00.003+08:00

TROUBLED:(....

#106

2008-12-06T03:41:00.002+08:00

surprise left with disappointment...

#105

2008-12-03T17:44:00.005+08:00

当初我能看出你在想什么
我就不会去猜测
我不去猜测就不会误会你
不会误会你就不会伤害你
不会伤害你
你如今就不会躲着我...
人生真的就像如此的笑话
一个充满泪水的笑话...

#104

2008-11-27T21:41:00.008+08:00

Twilight

Beast Stalker

caught this 2 great movie in a row
TWILIGHT
story about a girl falling in love with a vampire.
the plot goes like this: (for those who don't want to know as at, don't read it)

Isabella "Bella" Swan moves from sunny Phoenix, Arizona, to rainy Forks, Washington, to live with her father, Charlie. She chooses to do this so that her mother, Renée, can travel with her new husband, Phil Dwyer, who is a minor league baseball player. In Phoenix she was a bit of an outcast, so it surprises her that she attracts much attention at her new school, and is quickly befriended by several students. Much to her dismay, several boys in the school compete for shy Bella's attention.When Bella sits next to Edward Cullen in class on her first day of school, Edward seems utterly repulsed by her. He even attempts to change his schedule to avoid her, leaving Bella completely puzzled about his attitude towards her. After tricking a family friend, Jacob Black, into telling her the local tribal legends, Bella concludes that Edward and his family are vampires. Although she was inexplicably attracted to him even when she thought Edward drank human blood, she is much relieved to learn that the Cullens choose to abstain from drinking human blood, and drink animal blood instead. Edward reveals that he initially avoided Bella because the scent of her blood was so desirable. Over time, Edward and Bella fall in love.
The seemingly perfect state of their relationship is thrown into chaos when another vampire coven sweeps into Forks, and James, a tracker vampire, decides that he wants to hunt Bella for sport. The Cullens plan to distract the tracker by splitting up Bella and Edward, and Bella is sent to hide in a hotel in Phoenix. Bella then gets a phone call from James in which he says that he has her mother, and Bella must give herself up to James at her old dance studio, to save her. She does so, and while at the dance studio, James attacks her. Edward, along with the rest of the Cullen family, rescue Bella before James can kill her. Once they realize that James has bitten Bella's hand, Edward sucks the venom out of her system before it can spread and change her into a vampire. Upon returning to Forks, Bella and Edward attend their prom and Bella expresses her desire to become a vampire, which Edward refuses to let happen.
second was BEAST STALKER
the plot is about one traffic brought together the lives of a wanted criminal, a police sergeant, a public prosecutor and her daughter in a dramatic action adventure about friendship, duty, love and hate....
both are great movies
MUST GO WATCH!!!
but not available in singapore as yet
those who want to catch it before it's release in singapore catch it at malaysia instead...

#103

2008-11-27T10:24:00.001+08:00

ALL DOWN...

#102

2008-11-26T22:20:00.003+08:00

3 down 1 more to go...

#101

2008-11-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

2 down 2 more to go...

oh please
it's that thing you do...
isn't it?
~~disappointed?~~
i guess not anymore...

#100

2008-11-24T23:32:00.001+08:00

OH....

DID I TELL YOU HOW MUCH I ~~HATE~~ LOVE YOU?

WELL I GUESS I DIDN'T...

sighs

guess we are really drifting apart...
maybe it's not you
maybe it's not me
i guess it'a the both of us
i really didn't expect you to be who you are today
or maybe i should say
i'm too naive....
things aren't that simple as i think after all...
disenchanted...
thats all i got to say

#099

2008-11-23T20:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD ; <3

#098

2008-11-22T09:37:00.001+08:00

is this how life should be made?

#097

2008-11-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想
Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。
I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。
No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。
A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。
Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。
Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。
Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。
There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。
Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。
Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

#096

2008-11-18T22:23:00.003+08:00

25 december = christmas
6 december = ops general meeting
1 - 12 december = attachment
29 - 30 = red cross challenge
24 - 27 november = common test
23 november + dad's birthday

time really flies huh?

#095

2008-11-10T20:53:00.003+08:00

太倔强是好是坏呢?

#094

2008-10-29T20:52:00.004+08:00

time really flies...
it's WEDNESDAY
i need more time
need more time for myself
more time for you
more time for everything
24 hours doesn't seem to be enough
especially saturday and sunday
when there's work from 12 till 10 thirty.
there goes saturday and sunday.
i really need extra time...
school is still fine so far
but exams are up again...
✖sigh✖

#093

2008-10-28T20:41:00.001+08:00

i love you
from the bottom of my ~~heart~~
no i mean hypothalamus...
i love you.

#092

2008-10-27T21:15:00.002+08:00

how i wish you could lie to me...
if only wishes could be dreams
then dreams could come true.

#091

2008-10-10T10:52:00.007+08:00

hadn't been blogging for days
28 days to be exact.

sept 12 = last day of attachment / start of holidays.
sept 14 = uncle's wedding / 中秋节.
sept 26 = F1 first aid duty.
sept 27 = grandma's 100th days after death.
oct 3 - 5 = away at genting.

the events that happen in between other than these days
are better off not to be mentioned...

in the past,
whatever i wanted i would get it either days or weeks after
i will still be able to get it eventually
but now,
things are really different
everything is falling apart
including family
falling apart till .....
who would save the situation
YOU? / ME?

#090

2008-09-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

If I could go away, I would go away for good.

things are not as simple anymore
i'm sorry these words
doesn't seem to work anymore
how i wish time would turn back
i know it wouldn't...
how i wish i could wake up from this nightmare
but i know i couldn't...
things are really getting more and more complicated...
人人都说患难见真情
但...
这一切能从来，那该多好
掉入了无底洞想爬出来
但是始终还是爬不出!

#089

2008-09-09T23:58:00.004+08:00

life is always full of contradictions...
thanks to themlife still have to go on...
shalln't explain further
in the midst of giving up
where has the perservance gone to?
this me is no longer me...

#088

2008-09-04T23:00:00.006+08:00

sometimes,
somethings in life, don't have to be documented.
and sometimes,
some. do.

sometimes,
somethings in life, don't have to be remembered.
and sometimes,
some. do.

sometimes,
somethings in life, don't have to be forgotten.
and sometimes,
some. do.

sometimes,
somethings in life, don't have to be treasured.
and sometimes,
some. do.

sometimes,
somethings in life, don't have to be taken seriously.
and sometimes,
some. do.

sometimes......

#087

2008-09-03T10:39:00.005+08:00

tired...
super tired...
really tired...
in the midst of giving up.

if you know whats on her mind
if you know what her life is going through now
will you encourage her to hold on
OR will you encourage her to give up

#086

2008-08-30T16:06:00.003+08:00

counting up...
countimg down...
counting...
counting...
and counting...

#085

2008-08-25T20:24:00.006+08:00

22 august 2008
friday was spent ~~slacking~~ at home
not really exactly slacking at home
went for singapore fireworks celebration 2008 first aid duty
the first aid duty was still successful
the event was great too
just that it was drizzling...
thus the firework was still ok...
reached home late.

23 august 2008
saturday was spent working
then till evening
went for singapore fireworks celebration 2008 first aid duty
it started raining again...
but this time the smoke didn't clear off as fast as yesterday
so the firework didn't turn out great...
reached home late once again...

24 august 2008
working...
working...
working...

25 august 2008
1st day of attachment at SGH
kind of lost my way...
asked for directions.
✖OMG!✖
was supposed to report to
pathology lecture theatre
from the map it near blk 9
so went up to this staff nurse
and asked
conversation with the nurse
[ J: me ; N : nurse ]
J: "morning, sorry sister.do you know where's blk 9?"
N: "blk 9?"
N: "year 1 orientation?"
J: "yes. reporting for year 1 orientation"
J: "supposed to go to pathology lecture theatre"
N :" oh . pathology lecture theatre."
N: " pathology lecture theatre is not at blk 9"
J: "ok. then how should i get to pathology lecture theatre?"
N: "i bring you there."
J: "thank you."

she leads the way we talked on the way.
she was actually amazed when i asked her where's blk 9...
she told me blk 9 is actually....
for those who know SGH well enough ,
you know what i mean
what blk 9 is for.
[blk 9 is actually special blk for last office...]
✖LOL!✖
what a question to ask in the morning....

orientation was still great,
touring around the hospital was great too...

great news...
getting my psp soon....
13 september 2008!!!!!
✖whoa!✖
18 more days...
wha hahaha
hmm...
after psp would be
my braces...

#084

2008-08-21T16:01:00.008+08:00

now that exams have ended...
means attachment is around the corner
at the meantime,
slacking at home ✖alone✖
the flu and cough is killing both dearie & me
dearie is having exams
and the flu and cough is disturbing her at night
✖sorry!!!✖
the flu just can't seem to leave me...
seeing doctor again...

sorry but i have to get this off :
super pissed with YOU!
YOU know i am refering to YOU!
YOU yes YOU!
just so happen to read your blog
YOU sure KNOW YOUR FACTS
STOP MAKING YOURSELF SOUND PITIFUL
GROW UP! stop behaving like a kid
~~(or you are one in the first place? )~~

if i continue this i'm just like YOU
behaving like a kid...
i better stop cause i not one anymore...

#083

2008-08-18T15:25:00.004+08:00

3 papers down. and 1 more to go...
...✖rewinds✖

9th august 2008
happy national day
as usual went back to malaysia...

10th august 2008
rush back from malaysia
spent the evening packing for national camp
went down to hq at around 10 pm
spent the night over at hq.

11th august 2008 - 13 august 2008
national camp 2008
shall not elaborate too much as
the rest had already done so by now

reflections about the event:
我对
-walkie talkie
-david sir
产生了恐惧感...

why?
*thanks to somebody!*
overall i enjoyed the camp...

14th august 2008 - 17 august 2008
studying hard for exams...

15th august 2008
Fundamentals of Nursing Exam

16th august 2008
Anatomy and Physiology Exam

18th august 2008
Microbiology and Infection Control Exam

#082

2008-08-08T12:20:00.004+08:00

please pardon me for the super long time of not updating blog
finally got a bit of time to blog before the exams
so this entry would be quite long...

21st july 2008
racial harmony day today
T13 all wore different ethnic costume to school.
thanks peeps for the birthday present.
loves loads.thanks a lot...

22nd july 2008
Happy birthday Katherine!
finally 18 hur?
happy birthday...

24th july 2008
after dismissal as usual gathered together
gathered outside bookshop
dajie suggested to play 007...
so all played(da jie,mel mel,christina,fer fer,katherine,nisa,michelle,sam,chinghua)
christina had to do forfeit TWICE...
first was to offer someone biscuit and second was to catch attention by saying going to commit suicide...afterwhich headed home

Happy Birthday to ALL july babies...

*fast forward*

1st august 2008
Happy Nurses Day!!!

2nd august 2008
Happy Birthday Evonne Ma'am...
the present was quite screwed...pardon me
was really busy lately so rushed through the wrapping part...sorry
but still hope you like it

3rd august 2008
2 am in the morning....
still rushing through PAS project
super sleepy but still have to get it done...
3 am in the morning,
at last got it done

4th august 2008
PAS presentation was today
Mr Lim said was quite well done
thanks.
effort paid off....satisfied

5th august 2008
NSL practical test was today
topic was on removal of IV plug and figure of 8 on ankle
hope i did well...

6th august 2008
AAP practical test was today
did quite badly
got mixed up with the models
✖sighs✖how careless can i get?

7th august 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUGUSTINE!
✖SUPER PISSED!!!!!!✖
forget it, lets' not talk abt it...

8th august 2008
STUDYING HARD for exams...✖sobs✖

#081

2008-07-16T04:06:00.003+08:00

it's past midnight le...
the nightsky and the breeze felt has been becoming more and more of a familiar.
much explains why; it has more and more used to be the time i hit the bed.
i have been staying up late every night more and more often
seldom have the time been as early as eleven before i hit the bed...
i miss schooldays, where lessons starts promptly at seven, and end promptly at 2 at most 3
but now, lessons never start at the same time for all days, lessons never end at the same time for all days...by the time i settle down to get schoolwork done, it's 8 and having to finish them would always be after midnight...
to me now, going to bed as early as three in the morning is a normal thing le...

#080

2008-07-15T23:19:00.007+08:00

人人都说船到桥头自然直...
但有些时候船到桥头真的会自然直吗?

#079

2008-07-14T22:05:00.009+08:00

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.
But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.
'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.
I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.
But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.
'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.
I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.

#078

2008-07-13T20:43:00.012+08:00

11 july 2008
farewell camp 2008.
was really busy and tied up with schoolwork.
didn't go back.

12 july 2008
went pulau ubin early morning for national camp recee.recee was ok...after recee,we something really crazy( twins and i)
we travelled from changi to jurong just for two hours with batchmates...
all enjoyed the two hours of fun together!
haha...we all had fun...
left early after lunch/dinner
went back to malaysia
went for midnight movie at malaysia-jusco tebrau city.
Hancock...the movie was really great...
i would really thank and praise the god for what i have today...
be it friends-VI 0908,
the scenery,
the sunrise,
the sunset,
the moon,
the countless stars,
to me today was a really a good example of god's perfect creation...

13 july 2008
back from malaysia...

#077

2008-07-10T23:48:00.004+08:00

10 july 2008
clinical attachment list was out le...
posted to Singapore General Hospital for attachment...
looking forward?
uncertainties...

you used to be the reason why i smiled
but now you you are the reason why i cried...

#076

2008-07-09T23:17:00.004+08:00

9 july 2008
lessons as usual...
but today AAP lesson was fun...
especially with mike's nonsense...

7 july 2008
school reopen le...
✖gosh✖exams are around the corner again
the best thing - joan's going for National Camp
which will end one day before MAJOR EXAMS!
but then again...✖heck✖4 days of outdoor camp
i guess will relieve stess...

5-6 july 2008
went back to malaysia....

#075

2008-07-04T21:41:00.011+08:00

last day of attachment today...
learnt quite a few things
today had more interaction with the patients @rehab. center
the first pic was ah gong trying to separate the beans...
check out the beans to be separated
then check out the holes that he's supposed to separate into
then the other pictures are the clay sculptures
ah gong and ah ma did during one of their activity
then turtles are made by me :)...
then i learnt majong with this gong
that goes round looking at your tile
when he's one of the player...haha
when he's really good at majong playing...
the rest of the day was spent
slacking away....
still in disappointment....
thanks anyway to those who wished me
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ; <3

#074

2008-07-04T00:00:00.013+08:00

2 july 2008
the day started with going to Health Promotion Board
afterwhich went out for lunch with 'gang'
then decided to get myself a present
so went plaza singapura got myself a 3D jigsaw
✖damn✖ it's damn sinful
i'm in love with it...
but it's expensive
then went look for my uncle
afterwhich went out to celebrate my b'day on my own...
spent the night that i wanted...
but drunk...

莫莫人，
谢谢你.
今天偶然遇见你
可说是一场惊喜...
谢谢你
没有勇气面对你
是我的错
但...
谢谢你!
3 july 2008
went out for ice cream
with sister and her darling
✖sighs✖
~~show much i wish it was you...~~

4 july 2008
she's officially 18...
HAPPYY BIRTHDAY!!!!

#073

2008-07-03T04:17:00.004+08:00

went out late
came home late
was drunk

#072

2008-07-01T20:40:00.004+08:00

原来最疼痛的表情
竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面
可以甜言蜜语
原来最孤单的
是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的
是我不能面对自己

原来...我一直都在欺骗着自己
是时候面
对自己面对事实...

今天, 放工后就如平常一样
以放工后就直接回家
今天和平时不一样
今天没走回家
搭了巴士回家
是天意吗?
还是天在考验我?
看见了和莫莫人长得很相似的人
让我不知不觉想起了莫莫人
之从伤害了莫莫人
想接近莫莫人
可说是越来越难
不知为何一直好想好像
问你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
一句句的问候
时不时刻的想念, 挂念...
这一切...多么想告诉你
但... 我办不到,也不想要
因你一直躲着我
我再也不要伤害你

分手后不能做朋友，
因为彼此伤害过，
分手以后不能做敌人,
因为彼此相爱过...

#071

2008-06-30T21:39:00.007+08:00

monday morning started off with attachment
attachment today was still ok
the only thing was...
had to watch a video on aging
it was really saddening
about the content
it was interviews done on several elderly
talking about their past,present etc
it was really obvious the fear in them
the fear of aging
the fear of being lonely
the insecure...
✖sighs✖
must life be made like this?
honestly...
i feared too.

#070

2008-06-29T17:36:00.011+08:00

once again it's sunday le...
went church of the holy spirit today:]...
met mans @ 8:30am...
took bus 163 to thomson.
saw someone that has seen for quite sometime
ms shanti and florence
well...
nothing to comment much
saw florence twice.
once at church and
once at thomson plaza
smiled to her but guess what...
never mind.
同事一场，需要闹得这样吗？
或许你太小气了吧?
after church went AMK hub with mans
she wanted to sell her camera @ cash converters
in the end didn't sell due to the camera is only able to converted to cash of $1!!!
then persuaded her to drop that idea.
went to eat lunch together at this japanese shop...
reminded me of some memories in sakae
went windows shopping after that...
the day spent was really great
although...never mind
thanks mans.

#069

2008-06-28T22:04:00.005+08:00

an event to look forward to...
COC-Change of Command Parade.
yet another event working with batchmates and seniors
today, RCY welcomed a new director...
event went smoothly...
great feeling of pride and sense of accomplishment
a picture paint a thousand words.
see for yourself and you'll understand...

#068

2008-06-24T22:33:00.004+08:00

24 june2008/0930am
i send her off
the final last time
the feeling of sending off
was really hurting
but she still has to leave

she officially left this world at 1030am
i believed she's now at the west
where she finds all the good things...

take care.

#067

2008-06-21T01:12:00.008+08:00

20june2008,6:20pm
this date,this time
i'll never forget
this date,this time
many things could be happening
someone being welcomed into the world
someone leaving the world
someone rejoicing
someone mourning
this date this time
i lost someone
someone close

this time she really left me
it was really sudden that she left me...
she left all her loved ones behind...
she was called home
to the holy presenceof god
may she rest in peace.
she will always be part of my memories...

明天你会离我有多远 ?
六月二十日；六点二十分
此时此刻我都不会忘
此时此刻有很多的事情都同时发生
有人被迎接来到这世界
有人从这世界上离去
有人欢喜
有人愁
此时此刻的我是愁,悲
失去了身边珍贵的亲人
是一种很难以接受的事实
但也是一种难以改变的事实

她走了...
她从这世界上离去了
我再也无法在这世界上找到她
再也无法了...
她就这样从我身边擦肩而过离去了...
永别了...一个依依不舍的告别
但我还是希望你走得安心
再见了...

#066

2008-06-18T12:17:00.005+08:00

为什么当上帝创造人时，
给了人一对眼睛
而不只是一只？
原因
是要我们
在莫种情形下
睁一只眼闭一只眼
在莫种情形下
把事情看开...

为什么当上帝创造人时，
给了人一对耳朵而不只是一只？
原因是要我们在莫种情形下
该听得就听
不该听的就让它从另一端出
在莫种情形下
让耳朵听它想听得的话...

但我们就是办不到
才会总是为了一个“烦”字
而烦恼....
但如果人真的办得到
人再也不是人了....

#065

2008-06-16T14:19:00.007+08:00

had been busy with work lately
was @ suntec selling NEC laptop for the PC show
overall was still fun
though had to stand for long hours
not really long(actually the same number of hours as i worked in sakae)but this pay is a little higher
as it had basic and commission
depending the number of laptop sold
overall it's really a learning experience...
once again hate walking home alone after work...

#064

2008-06-11T11:50:00.005+08:00

欢喜中的期待，总是会变成失望...
所以请原谅我，我不期待着，
因为我不要它便成了一场失望的结局...

老实如果你问我是否期待着生日的到来
我可以说一点也不期待着
虽然是18岁生日，
不少人期待着自己的18岁生日
但我是那个例外我一点也不期待
从小就喜欢过生日的我，
每年一到六月
就开始在想自己要生日礼物
要如何去庆祝
每一年的生日都不会失望
因为有ah ma
但今年...
ah ma 生病了...
今年的生日不能和ah ma 一起庆祝了...

之从16岁生日
我就习惯了生日时去看日出,日落...
每年都是找深爱的人一起去看日出,日落
16岁，17岁...
18岁一个人孤独去看日出,日落？

不知不觉爱上你的我
希望你能陪我看日出
即使你在世界的另一端
我们还是能一起看日出
因为我们有着同样的天空...

我是否太天真了？

#063

2008-06-08T21:58:00.005+08:00

this world doesn't matter to me anymore
what matters to me now...is you.

with those endless sleepless nights,the crying
waking up every morning with swollen eyes
my eyes are really dry and tired
i guess i now really numb?
numb and unsure of my feelings
sometimes finding myself
laughing at the wrong time
crying at the wrong time
really confused about myself

living in self denial
refusal to accept the fact
at somehow somewhere a point in time
has to stop...but when is it?
all the self comforting,self encouraging
are not working out like before anymore...
it takes a lot of courage,strength to continue on
but i don't have those now
i tried being really ignorant to my surrounding
but i just couldn't do it
for once i thought i did it
but i was wrong...
forgive me...
for i just can't do it

#062

2008-06-07T00:54:00.004+08:00

18th birthday is just 27 days away...
will be another year older...
for those who happened to be
thinking of what present to get for me...
*help on the way*
i saved you the trouble...*haha*
spherical jigsaw puzzle
me to you bears (tatty bear)
actually any gifts will do
as its the thought that counts
but will be really glad
if i were to receive jigsaw puzzles....
especially those that are spherical in shape...

#061

2008-06-06T15:27:00.007+08:00

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my... my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always Be My Baby...

#060

2008-06-05T19:36:00.005+08:00

it has been quite some time i blog
busy with studies lately
common tests are finally over
holidays are here...
for now looking for a job

#059

2008-05-28T21:04:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO...

生日快乐！

#058

2008-05-19T12:28:00.010+08:00

holding on to our memories...
i'll still love you despite of
all the disappointment you left me...

time has been passing by really fast
it was just school reopening
but now tests, exams are coming up
i need to buck up
really pull up my socks
working hard towards my scholarship
everyone's aiming for it
the more i need to work hard
goodbye distractions...
welcome studies,
welcome aboard
will work hand in hand.
need moltivation, encouragement
wish me all the best
look forward in receiving
good news from me on my birthday!

18th Birthday this year would be a lonely one...
anyone willing to spend with me?
till then...

#057

2008-05-18T21:20:00.009+08:00

如果有一天我从这世界消失，
为我流泪的人希望不是你！
为我流泪的人证明了
他们没有珍惜过我和他们度过的时光
更不用说珍惜过我...
所以当你知道我从这世界消失时,
问一问自己是否应不应该流泪...
希望答案会是不应该...

#056

2008-05-18T00:28:00.008+08:00

just got home...
it's sunday le
saturday started off
with going for linkamania 2008 games trial @ Haw Par Hall
Red Cross House was crowded with public
comin in for donations for both Myanmar Cyclone and China Earthquake...
was there early so rot away...
only kaiting , chien cham , safa , serena , zalinah and i turned up...
the rest were involved in NDP/SYF
when the meeting began
gosh!madness...
we were like laughing non-stop throughout can...
thats VI 09/08! though everyone's busy eversince school started etc,
when it comes to saturday events at HQ,
everyone will try very best to arrange to attend
though some disappointment
but every gathering is always fun...
cause they were the ones that been through thick and thin with you
thanks people who made my morning...
then went to LJS for lunch...
as for eveing till night...
thanks people!
i really glad for having you all as friends...
you all always there when i really need someone there for me...
(not that the rest don't,they are always the one who spot that you need some kind of help)
thanks!

#055

2008-05-16T21:28:00.010+08:00

分手后不能做朋友，
因为彼此伤害过，
分手以后不能做敌人,
因为彼此相爱过...
我又伤害了我最深爱的人...

#054

2008-05-14T14:10:00.011+08:00

today's weather is what i'm feeling...

人要懂得学会---拿得起，放得下...
这几个字看来简单,但做起来并不简单...
我也不例外...
这几个字说实在的我还没学会...

#053

2008-05-13T22:02:00.011+08:00

香烟爱上火柴
就注定被伤害
这是否是一种错误？
我和你呢？

#052

2008-05-09T23:39:00.006+08:00

Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah
Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me!
Oh it's what you do to me!
Oh it's what you do to me!
Oh it's what you do to me!
What you do to me.

#051

2008-05-08T21:48:00.012+08:00

不告而别一向来不像你的风格,
今天幸好在学校你没有让我失望...谢谢!

#050

2008-05-07T18:43:00.005+08:00

If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours.
If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with.

#049

2008-05-06T05:25:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE...
生日快乐！

#048

2008-05-05T08:39:00.006+08:00

Today's Angels' Day...
Though it's Angels' Day
its' just....sigh...
woke up early to send msg to that special you...
i hope that msg didn't lost its way...
cause i didn't received yours...

给莫莫人发了简讯
一直有预感说莫莫人有心事
果然...
不知为何,或许是我吧
每次身边心爱的人一出事
我总会有一种预感...

If we deny love that is given to us,
if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss,
then our lives will be empty, our loss greater

#047

2008-05-04T21:50:00.005+08:00

went back to johore...
things aren't great these few weeks...
really WANT AND NEED a rest desperately...
can i have one please...
i want to wake up from this nightmare too
this nightmare is just too much for me to take it...
what i really need now is
-someone to be there for me
-someone to rely on
-someone's shoulder to cry on
-a bag of courage
-a bag of smiles
-another me....

#046

2008-05-04T09:17:00.005+08:00

难道我爱上你有错吗?

#045

2008-05-03T15:16:00.008+08:00

爱一个人总是痛苦的，被爱的总是幸福的...

现在的我真正体会到了这说为的感觉...
莫莫人离我越来越远了
虽然彼此所存在的距离不远
但心灵上的距离是越来越远...

#044

2008-05-02T10:36:00.006+08:00

走在这下着雨的道路上，
我正在等什么？
什么是算拥有过？
心灵上？可能都不是这些...
可能我什么都没有拥有过.
凡是只要尽力该说已说完，
该做已做完，是否已足够了？
什么才是终点？
原来我一直以来都不知道什么是起点...
事实上，可能一直以来都不曾有过起点，又哪来的终点？
又怎么能知道哪里才是终点？
是由天定，还是由人定？
我花了无数个失眠夜，哭尽的眼泪，
所做得决定往往改变不了任何东西...
我决定快乐，明天我又因孤单而落泪.
我决定开心，笑着面对每个人，
但我觉得怪怪的，似乎不是真正的我，
而我又觉得累，又何必呢？
放弃吗？
命运就是会嘲笑别人,
在我最失落时给了希望,
让我觉得我什么都曾拥有过,
但给了后,
就把这希望从我手上拿走,
再让我觉得我什么都没曾拥有过...
可悲吧?

ATTN:莫莫人
莫莫人:
已经过了几天
一直盼望着你的讯息/电话
但讯息/电话一直没到
或许迷路了吧...
或许你太忙了...
或许,或许,或许...
一直自我安慰
讯息/电话今天会到
但每晚都是失望的入眠...
虽然我不知道你到底在想什麽:
但我知道我一直无法把你忘记...
是天意吗?
"六月的雨是无情的你!"
我知道你不是故意的
但却为何把我丢弃在风雨里?
我不忍心也不想背叛你
唯有默默等你
只想对你说
我不是故意要伤害你的
对不起...
我从没放弃也不会离你而去
那怕有一天得到的
是一个我不想要的结局
我会依然默默守护着你...

#043

2008-05-01T10:13:00.006+08:00

香烟爱上火柴
就注定被伤害

老鼠爱上猫咪
就注定被淘汰
我爱上了你
就注定离不开

不要轻易说爱
许下的承诺
欠下债

老鼠对猫说我爱你
猫说你走开
谁也没想到老鼠走后
猫留了一滴泪

现在的我
已经不是以前的我...

#042

2008-04-30T14:22:00.006+08:00

望着你
慢慢离开
宿命像潮水般淹没我
不能呼吸
漂浮在黑色的海
怎么习惯
失去你的未来
怎么留住渐渐消失的云彩
骗自己爱还存在
泪水却始终不断
命中注定没有你的未来
莫失莫忘
渐渐消失的空白
什么都别说
我不想懂
至少我还拥有
美丽的梦
什么都别说
我真的不想懂
终于明白
该放手...

莫莫人,
看来是时候放手了...
当我需要你的时候,
你在哪里?
你不是说过要当我的守护神吗？
都会一直默默地守候，
从认识我那天起~永远不变...
但不知为何我再也找不到
那一直守护着，保护着我的守护神了...
守护神你消失了,
再也找不到你了...
是时候... 放手了
感谢你在我生命中留下一段美好的回忆
虽然有点遗憾,
但....

遇到曾经偷偷喜欢的人时，
要祝他幸福哦!
因为你喜欢他时，
不是希望他幸福快乐吗?

#041

2008-04-28T23:05:00.008+08:00

i really don't feel like hiding anymore
continue to hide does not make me feel any better...

those who happened to read this,
i don't really care,
i'll not be bothered,
with whatever is going to be spread...
i just cannot take it anymore...

honestly,
i really feel up giving up
i'm really tired
what's being happy?
what's tears?
what's feelings?
i'm finding myself fading away

the medication is killing me once again...
it's getting worse to worst...
falling sick each day on top of the medical history...

to all out there:
i'm really sorry...
do forgive me
if i have done anything wrong to have hurt you
be it words, actions or feelings...
i'm really sorry....

to that very special you:
i am really missing you alot...
living each day looking forward to hear from you...

#040

2008-04-27T22:18:00.005+08:00

it has been exactly 52 days since i last blogged...
here i am blogging now,clearing up the spiderwebs that has gathered...
52 days...these 52 days has been...
not just simple...
it really made me experienced the different experience in life
sometimes it really made me feel like giving up
i guess thats how life is planned
in a way that you'll learn to grow???
school started...
still coping well i guess...
我可说是52天没上我的博客写我人生所发生的点点滴滴了...
这52天可说让我真正体会到人生的喜、怒、哀、乐
52天的时间对有些人来说是很短，
但却对有些人来说是很长，
对我而言这52天
足以让我想过要放弃...
这段期间真的觉得很疲倦...
很想找人诉苦,但...
可悲吧？
让我真正看到我的人生其实很可悲，
即时有一天我的世界塌下来
我还是要自己扛，继续往前走
可悲吧？

#039

2008-04-22T16:22:00.007+08:00

A Lonely September
Plain White T's
I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration goneit's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove
And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

#038

2008-03-29T21:14:00.004+08:00

sighs..

#037

2008-03-07T11:52:00.005+08:00

what really lies behind all along the ''smiles''
is the actual me
sometimes really feel like giving up
hate facing people with those smiles
when you know those are not smiles
but masks...
mask for you to face the world...
can i please have a day where
i can go out with the really me
not what the world wants me to be
but what i want myself to be?
when will this day come?
today?
tomorrow?
the day after?
or never???

#036

2008-03-05T11:41:00.004+08:00

spider gathering huh?
it's time to do some clearing up...
*vacuum cleaning*

there is REALLY lots of things
RELLY loads of things happening all at once
i'm really tired
could someone kindly step out
spare me a shoulder,
to cry on,
a pair of listening ear,
to listen to my sorrows
a bag full of smiles,
to be able to face the world again and again
with those smiles
a bag full of joy,
so that i can find laughter in it,

will you???
any kind souls???

#035

2008-01-24T23:27:00.005+08:00

if i were to say that i am fine,
I AM LYING
if i were to say that i don't need someone to talk to,
I AM LYING
if i were to say i am glad about my results,
I AM LYING
if i looked like i am happy
ACTUALLY I AM NOT
if i were to tell you i am not tired
I AM LYING
seriously there is just TOO much for me to handle
I REALLY REALLY need someone to be there for ME
PATHETIC isn't it??
if it make you feel better
GO ON laugh at me
JUST laugh at me
i really had enough
i need a rest..............

#034

2008-01-23T21:36:00.003+08:00

seriously i don't know what i am
suppose to be feeling right now
the 'O' levels result will be out tomorrow but something that i can confirm that is to leave everything to God
he has plans for each and individual one of us...
Jesus loves the little children...
and i believe i am one of them

#033

2008-01-22T15:58:00.006+08:00

病了好几天
可说是筋疲力尽
让我真真体会到
医生的重要性
生病的那几天
可说是看了两位医生
之从5年前的那场病后
总会对药物有一种恐惧感
总会不想去接触它
更不用说去吃它
终算是雨过天晴了
虽然偶尔会感到不适
但至少不会像当初的那几天
痛得脸青唇白

#032

2008-01-07T18:31:00.004+08:00

Gosh!It has been exactly 45 days since i last blog!!!
Must be glad and grateful to have the time to blog now.
45 days,i must say those days were hectic...and the upcoming days will also be hectic!!
lots of stuff happened during the 45 days...
VIP0908,Christmas,New Year,School Reopen,Bong's Birthday,WORK!!!
busy huh?
those were past, memories of past...
present...
i would say to treasure the times i have now...
future...
really don't know what the future has for me...
but will live everyday like there is no tomorrow...
things happened for a reason isn't it?
is there an explaination to it???

#031

2007-11-24T10:24:00.006+08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL:
I'VE LOST MY PHONE
so there is no way else
you all can contact me
except my house phone
so call my house phone instead...
if you still can't get me leave a message
with whoever picks up the house phone...
and i get back to you asap.

this is to the person who picked up my phone:
i waited for you the WHOLE DAY
but you didn't turn up
if you had the intention of not returning
please for god sake
DO NOT CALL MY HOUSE AND
SAID YOU WOULD RETURN MY PHONE
BY 5 pm!!!!you can think that
i'm stupid, gullible of anything that
you want to label me as....
as least i believed in YOU
you created hope for me
but instead letting the hope to live
YOU CRUSHED IT!
if that YOUR purpose
the i would tell YOU
DON'T CREATE THE HOPE FOR ME!!!

#030

2007-11-22T01:02:00.005+08:00

<GOSH!!i'm starting to miss school...yes i mean school!starting to miss those school lessons,those friends in school...missing everything...
=====================================================================
The escape outing was cancelled and the juniors weren't that glad...so i said to go with them instead of the present seniors...(actually to be honest)i seriously didn't have the thought of going(maybe a little)at that point in time when i heard it was cancelled what came to my mind was the gathering should go on...thats why i said to go with them.In the end i didn't go...(sorry to all who expected me me to go...)but i hope you all did enjoy yourselves...

#029

2007-11-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

#028

2007-11-16T20:57:00.006+08:00

"I'll Remember You"
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be,forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you
=====================================================================================

the song somehow reminded me...its like the days in IJ...be it the school...the teachers...really appreciated...really would like to thank them...i guess without them i would not be who i am today...THANK YOU...will always remember the days in IJ...

#027

2007-11-16T18:54:00.004+08:00

grad nite just ended....
there's a LOT of mixed feeling inside me
thers a lot really A LOT
i really don't know how to express them
anyway pictures will be up soon...
let for it yourself and you will know...

#026

2007-11-14T19:44:00.005+08:00

3 things you hate about [Stephenie]:[Elizabeth]: [Francesca]:[Hillary]

The most memorable words i had said to you:

If you are my lover,

If you are my enemy,

If you die,

i decided to do this "test" all at one shot, as i will be BUSY from next week onwards...i've got a job [as usual near my house]it's at entertainment centre...SAKAE SUSHI...as a waitress[although don't really like being waitress...just trying out for the time being]do drop by...back to the "test"...my comments would actually be the same...

3 things I hate abt you:

ANSWER:[hate about you?no one in the world is made perfect, we are made to learnt to accept things for what they are...isn't it? if one day i were to hate you,for the things that you have done to hurt me again and again,you beter stay away from me cause i'll REALLY turn nasty and the outcome would not be the one you expected]

The most memorable words i had said to you:

ANSWER:[memorable words?hmm...can't really remember which are the memorale words...haha:)]

If you are my lover:

ANSWER:[lover??hmm...i guess you wouldn't be my first one...haha:)not even the first be it girlfriend or boyfriend....haha...SOOOOO SORRY:(]

If you are my enemy:
ANSWER:[enemy?i guess you wouldn't want to get my nerves or even near me...and would pray that i get over it soon if not GOOOOOOOOODDDDD LUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKSSSS cause you will be expecting the unexpected
If you die:
ANSWER:[dead?i'll cry...then i wll get over it.Afterall there is no way you will be back alive]

Hmm...grad nite is tomorrow...looking forward?i really don't know...and for the test those answers are really truth...

#025

2007-11-08T22:47:00.004+08:00

Grad nite is approaching
and guess what?
joan here has not bought her dress for that event!!
for the fact that it is a DRESS!![something that she dislike!]
went shopping todae
shopping with jojo,val,and jac was madness...
suppose to meet at 11 at Plaza Sing.
at around 10+ msg received to meet at 11 thirts
and joan was on time and was made to wait till 12
when the other three came
another crazy incident was
the fact that after lunch we went from P.S
to peninsular plaza
to marina square
to heeren...
by then was half dead...
i need a job!!!
the interview at B&J
was i guess a failure due to overwhelming response!!
sighs...i guess have to look for another one
AND CHRISTMAS IS APPROACHING!!!
*hints**hints**hints**hints**hints**hints*
sending christmas cards soon
pardon me if you don't receive one
cause i'm lazy to post...
can collect from me instead?
so i can save another sum of money for myself
not having to post the cards...

#024

2007-11-01T15:37:00.005+08:00

those 45 days were like a ride on roller-coaster
there was ups and not forgetting downs
if a picture paint a thousand words45 days would be a million or billion words
as usual being slow
million(billion)words
would take me a few days or even few weeks
therefore i'm not updating as yet
and 'O' has started
and ending soon
this examination has been a ride
through the books
YES - BOOKS
not kidding
testing you the knowledge from the past years.
and i realised that i am losing faith and hope in
what i have been always believing.
the thought of it makes me feel that i am uselesssomeone please help me
give me some encouragement
ask me to continue to believe in
what i have always been believing in
and god please give me some encouragement
to hang on there and not give up halfway
and you will take care of the restas miracles do happen sometimes...

#023

2007-10-30T15:27:00.003+08:00

I am back to blog again....
*ahem ahem*
sorry a bit the dusty here...
to be exact 45 days since i last update
MY BLOG IS ALIVE NOW!!!
drop me more tags....

#022

2007-09-17T14:59:00.005+08:00

official message to all:
BLOG that you are reading now
has currently slipped into UNCONSCIOUSNESS
due to lack of tender loving care
and heavy stress to study for 'O' levels exam
do pray for me

#021

2007-08-19T18:22:00.004+08:00

STRESS...
EXAMINATIONS...
prelims around the corner
-studying-
why must there be such
thing as examinations???

#020

2007-08-18T18:12:00.001+08:00

#019

2007-08-16T12:38:00.005+08:00

不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很後面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

回忆的画面
在荡着秋千
梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
又何必去改变
已错过的时间

你用你的指尖
阻止我说再见
想像你在身边
在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
或许命运的签
只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天
飘落後才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎麽捡

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很後面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

回忆的画面
在荡着秋千
梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
又何必去改变
已错过的时间

你用你的指尖
阻止我说再见
想像你在身边
在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
或许命运的签
只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天
飘落後才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎麽捡

The cold coffee leaves the coaster
I hold my feelings very far back

I work hard wanting to get the past back
You can still see it as always clearly on my face

The most beautiful thing wasn't the rainy day
It was the eaves that you and I once took shelter under from the rain

The images of our memories
As I'm swinging on the swing
The dream starts to not be sweet

You say gradually let go of love
Then you will walk farther
Why go changing
The time that has already been missed

You use your fingertip
To stop me from saying goodbye
I imagine you by my side
Before I completely lose you

You say gradually let go of love
Then you will walk further
Perhaps the lot of fate
Only let us meet

Only let us love each other
For this one season of autumn
I only discover after they float down
The fragments of this happiness
How am I going to pick them up?

as usual love this song
should watch the movie too
the way thay both play the piano
all i can say is that they are G-R-E-A-T!
GREAT! is the word to describe them...
recommendation:***** stars

#018

2007-08-13T19:24:00.004+08:00

'O' level mother tongue result was out
i got a freaking B3!
distinction for oral
wanted a A badly but got a B
going to retake again i guess

you never know
how much you
love someone
until they're gone